"I am frustrated and feel lonely - deep into my bones. I miss touch and yearn for human connection.... I wonder how one forms and maintains relationships? Of any sorts ... I remain clueless about it and marvel at how others do it."
...“chasing the dragon” is usually associated with the heroin addict’s constant pursuit of the high. The oblivion. Perhaps the dragon of sexual desire is like this..., and especially for us as men...
I think my nervous system is here to tell me something that will help me, not limit me. For me to become myself more fully, I have to trust that my nervous system is doing more than telling me to shut down.
My latest thought: Perhaps it's also important for me to lose time with everyone I meet? It's one of the reasons I choose to spend time with one or two people, rather than in groups. I feel myself too hurried and too protective when even three or four are in conversation. I crave the slow.