FROM A DEEPER UNDERSTANDING

Apprenticeship to Love: The crooked path of marriage (April 28, 2026)

TODAY'S MEDITATION


There is no meeting of needs. There is only serving needs. The need of love to blossom, freely.

This morning I offered to do something on behalf of my beloved.

For years I lived by a rule, that I would not do for others what I believed they should be able to do themselves. It was a way to protect myself from the mess I'd created with "co-dependent" behaviours.

It was also a way of avoiding. I did not want to step into full responsibility for using the gifts and powers that were mine. Better to stay small than to take that risk.

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As I am doing this work, the work of walking this path that I call my apprenticeship to love, I learn to become the man I am. I know myself in my body. I become embodied, as this man.

I am beginning to understand something very basic: my presence as a man is powerful, and it is what I am called to share with my world. I am no longer avoiding who I can be. My depth. I am no longer limiting myself, making myself blind to the treasures life, and love, lay at my feet.

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I cannot make you happy.

I cannot solve your problems.

I cannot know your path, what you need to experience to be true to who you are, as a man or a woman.

What I can do is make myself happy. I can solve my own problems. I can walk my path. And, walking my path more freely than I knew was possible, I am better at sharing my gifts. I am learning how to be generous. I am learning that my helping you does not compromise myself.

Today I am better at understanding that your pain is not mine to resolve, but that my happiness is a light you may need.

TODAY'S INSPIRATIONS

🌀...You’re an outlaw, and every great prophet was considered an outlaw by those who were normal in their time. This is the fine line you must navigate –to live outside the norm and be considered an outlaw while maintaining the ethics, values, and morals of one who abides by the law. This is where "spiritual teachers” who are deeply ‘self-centric’ separate from those who are empathic. This is where sociopathic behaviour diverges from socio-centric envelopment. Bob Dylan said it in his song ‘Absolutely Sweet Marie’ – “To live outside the law, you must be honest.” And Woody Guthrie said it in ‘Pretty Boy Floyd’ – "I love a good man outside the law, just as I hate a bad man inside the law." (Guru Singh)

🌀Polarity without love looks a lot like manipulation.
...if you want to unclench and expose and dig deep and taste truth through the alignment of your heart with the heart of Love…..
If you want to know trust and devotion through flesh into god into life into all into the core of who you are...
If you want to shed romanticized ideals of how another will complete you, and instead offer your completeness to the completion of another...
Welcome. (Nina Lombardo)

🌀The Conscious Warrior is committed to developing strength of the mind, physical body, and nervous system through dedicated physical, yogic, and meditative practice. (John Wineland)

🌀You're not like that now. (My beloved, my oracle)