There is a siren call to be more of myself, to experience more of myself. I am choosing to listen. To keep things simpler, slower, quieter. And then I begin to hear things, and wonder about things.
One of the most beautiful things I can do for myself and everyone around me is to retrain my nervous system. As a masculine-identified man I'm trained in the defensive/offensive “warrior” mode. There are good reasons for this. Today, there are better reasons to learn something new.
I used to think this was a 50/50 thing. I used to think that we were equally responsible for this trusting at the crossing. I believed that it was up to this thing called "us," whether the crossing was made or not. This belief was a fundamental failing my relationships. I know differently now.
I used to think I needed someone to love me, for that feeling to be real. Now, I know better.